trente: les examens.

Yes I'm rubbish at blogging, it's official, unlike Martin who is using his lovely skills to redesign this for me, I have no idea what to do with it. His site is much better, see:

So I'm in the middle of exams, well a third of the way through to be exact. For some reason these exams have been much more stressful than any others I've experienced, and although my mum says I say this every year I know its especially true this year because it's just so strange doing exams and revising so far away from home. It's horrible to say that I feel lonely sometimes, but it's true. I am growing up a lot though, at least I hope I am

2 more weeks or so

After my fairly successful Medieval to Renaissance Literature exam this morning (yes I don't know why I'm studying English and French either), I think it's safe to say that I'm getting into the swing of exams now, in fact this morning kind of felt like it was a year ago, when I was in the midst of A Levels and didn't really care that after the summer I would have to move out and grow up. My next exam could possibly be horrific, as I've hated the module from the beginning, but I've decided, thanks to the help of my wondrous friends, family and petit ami, that it's best to be positive, and most importantly merci mon petit ami for reminding me to breathe. That's very important

So maybe I might make more of an effort with this now. It helps to vent after an exam, and even before it (as my bathroom-mate found out in the early hours of this morning as she heard me screaming in frustration due to lack of sleep), and writing like this definitely helps. I also have another aim for this blog, inspired once again by the petit ami, and that is to focus on something with it. I'll probably use it to chart my final weeks of year one of university, and then my adventures in the summer, and possibly might get even more adventurous and actually just write and review things. After all, I did once harbour dreams of being a music or fashion journalist, it's just that everything has been so scary as of late. This is no excuse, I'm going to write, if only for my benefit. And although I'll look back on this in a couple of weeks and despair and sigh, right now I want to make an effort, with everything. I'm trying harder with everything more than I ever have in my life.

Okay rant over. I cannot wait until these exams are over and I can enjoy summer again, last summer seems like an age ago. When did everything change?